1/11/2020

What's your calling?

This week's lesson was all about my calling in life and who I want to be and even who I want to become. Those are all great questions; easy questions to answer if you know what you want. For me, those were hard questions. Why? because I want many things.
What do I want?
Teach what I love. I want to garden all day. I want to see my finances every day. I want to be a good steward of what God has blessed me with. I want a job/calling where I can communicate in Spanish.

The truth is that I like so many things and because of it, it's hard for me to choose one path. But, I think I'm figuring it out little by little.

Also, during this week, I read a few talks and watch some videos about this same topic I've been writing about.

Jeffrey A. Thompson said, "He has equipped you with power to do so. You- you personally- are full of divine capacities to do good that you probably don't even fully appreciate." As I was writing this quote, I thought about my patriarchal blessing. I thought about those little words that have always touched my heart. I think I need to tell myself more often that I do have capacities and that because my Father is a creator, I can also create.

When the world ask me the question, "What's your calling?" I always feel obligated to say something about money. I feel like they are waiting for me to say, "I want to be rich", I want to retired by 35," when in reality I don't want any of that. Rich? Why do I want to be rich? The only reason I would want to be rich is to help others but since being rich is not my goal, then I don't have to worry about it. Work is such a blessing, not because it can help you sustain your life, but it can also help you mentally, it can clear your mind of bad thoughts, it can fill it with good thoughts too. I believe in using your work as a tool to bless God's children.

Brother Thompson continue, "Perhaps the state of our hearts is as important as the tasks we do in determining whether our work is truly- and eternally- meaningful." This goes well with Randy Pausch "Last Lecture" of achieving your childhood dreams.

I think that to dream you have to be awake. Why? let me tell you about my childhood dream. I wanted to be a flight attendant. From my house growing up, I could see the airplanes taking off from the airport. I thought it would be cool to work inside an airplane. I always had that dream while I was asleep. Flight attendants are always on the go, far from home and sometimes even days away from home. Also when I was little, flight attendants were no less than 5.5 tall (I'm 5.2). After I "awoke" from that dream and realize all of the pros and cons, I knew that I really did not want to be away from my family and I didn't want to be stuck inside a box without natural air.

Randy Pausch was dreaming while awake. I believe in dreams, and without a doubt, I know dreams can come true. I married the best guy on earth and I have a beautiful family. Dreams do come true. Again, dreaming is important but make sure you are awake.

After all the things I studied this week and now writing about them, I don't know why I want to cry. I guess this lesson has helped me discover who I want to be. And after asking myself, "What's my calling?" I think I may have the answer. My calling is to know and experiment with everything that God has created for me.